I started my day by: being thankful that kyleigh actually got some decent sleep last night (which meant i did too!!). my goals for today: well, i'm supposed to go to christy's house and get the bouncer for kyleigh. hopefully she'll like that better than her swing? i wanted to go lay out, but that's not gonna happen. i also wanted to go shopping, but i don't think that's gonna happen either. soooo....it looks like all i have on my agenda today is laundry! and go to christy's house if kyleigh wakes up from her nap in a better mood. today i feel: bored. lonely. exhausted. extremely homesick. the funniest thing that happened today: ummm, nothing. i haven't left the house and charles wasn't awake very long after he got home from work. the most memorable thing that occured today: i was successful in putting kyleigh to sleep for a nap. i also downloaded a police scanner app on my phone. it's pretty amazing. the best part of my day: charles coming home to me. something i am looking forward to tomorrow: not much. charles has to work. maybe kyleigh and i will do some shopping tomorrow for memorial day?!
the journal prompt that i really want to do today is: 'list all of the people from your life, past and present, who push your emotional buttons or drive you crazy. what is going on right now that breaks your heart, makes you angry, or makes you feel powerless?' but, i made the mistake of posting the link to this on facebook and i will most likely offend people. i'm not in the mood for all that today so instead i'll do this prompt: 'list where you would go if you could go anywhere in the world. who would you take with you? what are your best memories of childhood fun?'
there are sooo many places i'd like to go!! i want to go to beautiful beaches like jamaica or cancun or the bahamas or greece! i think i'd choose somewhere in mexico because i'd love to just lay on a beach and forget my worries with a cold drink in my hand. i'd also choose somewhere in mexico because i know the food is good hahaha!! i would definitely bring kyleigh and charles with me!
best memories of childhood fun...oh, where would i start! i can definitely say i had a very entertaining childhood! i remember jessica and i made a "newspaper" company and used to type up "news stories" on the computer and jessica used to always "fire" me because of stupid stuff like my stories never being long enough or not having pictures or that they were just plain stupid. haha! we made an art club once and i was kicked out for "not being talented enough". we once tried to sell the art (we were definitely unsuccessful). we also set up a thing in our grandma's driveway to do face painting. we were obviously all about the money!! haha. tiana and jessica were so mean to me when we were kids, but it made for good memories haha! jessica used to sit in the back of our grandma's van and narrate stories of people walking by haha! jessica also once caught a bunch of butterflies and put them in a container because she swore she was gonna be able to breed them! i remember one afternoon me, tiana and jessica were walking home from school and jessica was looking at us while talking and totally smacked her head into someone's mailbox! and one afternoon my grandma picked us up from school and told us that her and my grandpa had bought a hot tub and we were all so excited to go see it when we got home! my grandma failed to mention that she had cleaned the glass on the sliding door prior to picking us up and so we come running into the house to go to the back porch to see the hot tub and jessica runs straight into the sliding door and busted her nose! her nose was bleeding and all we could do was laugh! we also used to play "lava monster" on the swing set in my grandma's backyard and we were laughing REALLY hard about something and jessica fell because she was laughing so hard and totally peed her pants! it was amazing! she had to go in and the only extra clothes that were at my grandma's house were a pair of my sweat pants so that's what jessica had to put on and they were like 6 sizes too small because jessica is about 7 feet tall and i'm about 3. haha! oh, i could go on forever!!!
so charles and kyleigh are sleeping and as hard as i tried to take a nap, i was unsuccessful. i was trying to entertain myself without making too much noise so i started browsing through the apps on my phone and came across a police scanner app! i thought it was gonna be fun, but it actually turns out to be kind of scary! when i first turned it on they were discussing whether or not pictures were necessary for the scene they were at! i got scared and changed it to a different location and now they are trying to get a woman in custody who locked herself in her house. she apparently got into an argument with someone and threw scissors at them! i thought it was going to be fun to be nosy, but it only just reminds me of how crazy people are! it also reminds me that these calls about these people are living in the area i'm living in!!! police and dispatchers really do say 10-4 in response to almost everything. i thought it was a myth. there's a whole list of codes that they use, they probably have cheat sheets in their cars.
i saw two girls yesterday walking through a parking lot slowly pointing in different directions and i could tell they were very confused. i parked, got out of my truck and started walking towards the store and the alarm of a car 3 cars away from the girls started going off. the car was on the other side of a big truck. they started laughing because it was their car.. haha!
kyleigh has started spitting up again. and crying. we had a very rough night last night and i have a feeling that tonight will only be a repeat...i think its colic? i want to take her to the dr tomorrow, but it's memorial day and she's restricted to only seeing drs on base so i'm sure they're closed tomorrow. she cried off and on for a good 5 hours last night, please let me get a break tonight :( i was unable to get a nap in. not even after trying to watch a stupid movie i rented. good thing it was free. i want to go for a walk, but it's so hot and sticky outside!i hate summers here. i REALLY hate summers here. i actually just hate the weather here period. (i also hate when kyleigh gets hiccups!!!) i hate feeling so helpless when kyleigh seems upset and i hate that when i've tried EVERYTHING i can possibly think of to make her feel better, charles isn't here for me to ask for more suggestions. people always say 'you can call me whenever you want', but do they really mean it? it's just like running into someone you haven't seen in years and telling them 'we should have lunch sometime'. i think those are expressions people say, but probably only about 40% of people actually mean it.
i miss cali. it hit me today just how homesick i am. :(
the journal prompt that i really want to do today is: 'list all of the people from your life, past and present, who push your emotional buttons or drive you crazy. what is going on right now that breaks your heart, makes you angry, or makes you feel powerless?' but, i made the mistake of posting the link to this on facebook and i will most likely offend people. i'm not in the mood for all that today so instead i'll do this prompt: 'list where you would go if you could go anywhere in the world. who would you take with you? what are your best memories of childhood fun?'
there are sooo many places i'd like to go!! i want to go to beautiful beaches like jamaica or cancun or the bahamas or greece! i think i'd choose somewhere in mexico because i'd love to just lay on a beach and forget my worries with a cold drink in my hand. i'd also choose somewhere in mexico because i know the food is good hahaha!! i would definitely bring kyleigh and charles with me!
best memories of childhood fun...oh, where would i start! i can definitely say i had a very entertaining childhood! i remember jessica and i made a "newspaper" company and used to type up "news stories" on the computer and jessica used to always "fire" me because of stupid stuff like my stories never being long enough or not having pictures or that they were just plain stupid. haha! we made an art club once and i was kicked out for "not being talented enough". we once tried to sell the art (we were definitely unsuccessful). we also set up a thing in our grandma's driveway to do face painting. we were obviously all about the money!! haha. tiana and jessica were so mean to me when we were kids, but it made for good memories haha! jessica used to sit in the back of our grandma's van and narrate stories of people walking by haha! jessica also once caught a bunch of butterflies and put them in a container because she swore she was gonna be able to breed them! i remember one afternoon me, tiana and jessica were walking home from school and jessica was looking at us while talking and totally smacked her head into someone's mailbox! and one afternoon my grandma picked us up from school and told us that her and my grandpa had bought a hot tub and we were all so excited to go see it when we got home! my grandma failed to mention that she had cleaned the glass on the sliding door prior to picking us up and so we come running into the house to go to the back porch to see the hot tub and jessica runs straight into the sliding door and busted her nose! her nose was bleeding and all we could do was laugh! we also used to play "lava monster" on the swing set in my grandma's backyard and we were laughing REALLY hard about something and jessica fell because she was laughing so hard and totally peed her pants! it was amazing! she had to go in and the only extra clothes that were at my grandma's house were a pair of my sweat pants so that's what jessica had to put on and they were like 6 sizes too small because jessica is about 7 feet tall and i'm about 3. haha! oh, i could go on forever!!!
so charles and kyleigh are sleeping and as hard as i tried to take a nap, i was unsuccessful. i was trying to entertain myself without making too much noise so i started browsing through the apps on my phone and came across a police scanner app! i thought it was gonna be fun, but it actually turns out to be kind of scary! when i first turned it on they were discussing whether or not pictures were necessary for the scene they were at! i got scared and changed it to a different location and now they are trying to get a woman in custody who locked herself in her house. she apparently got into an argument with someone and threw scissors at them! i thought it was going to be fun to be nosy, but it only just reminds me of how crazy people are! it also reminds me that these calls about these people are living in the area i'm living in!!! police and dispatchers really do say 10-4 in response to almost everything. i thought it was a myth. there's a whole list of codes that they use, they probably have cheat sheets in their cars.
i saw two girls yesterday walking through a parking lot slowly pointing in different directions and i could tell they were very confused. i parked, got out of my truck and started walking towards the store and the alarm of a car 3 cars away from the girls started going off. the car was on the other side of a big truck. they started laughing because it was their car.. haha!
kyleigh has started spitting up again. and crying. we had a very rough night last night and i have a feeling that tonight will only be a repeat...i think its colic? i want to take her to the dr tomorrow, but it's memorial day and she's restricted to only seeing drs on base so i'm sure they're closed tomorrow. she cried off and on for a good 5 hours last night, please let me get a break tonight :( i was unable to get a nap in. not even after trying to watch a stupid movie i rented. good thing it was free. i want to go for a walk, but it's so hot and sticky outside!i hate summers here. i REALLY hate summers here. i actually just hate the weather here period. (i also hate when kyleigh gets hiccups!!!) i hate feeling so helpless when kyleigh seems upset and i hate that when i've tried EVERYTHING i can possibly think of to make her feel better, charles isn't here for me to ask for more suggestions. people always say 'you can call me whenever you want', but do they really mean it? it's just like running into someone you haven't seen in years and telling them 'we should have lunch sometime'. i think those are expressions people say, but probably only about 40% of people actually mean it.
i miss cali. it hit me today just how homesick i am. :(
I'm sorryyour home sick! You know i'm here for you too!! I wish i lived closer so i could come give you a break. Good news if it is colic it doesn't last TOO long. But, i think babies have their good days and bad days...
ReplyDeleteOh, i ran into a sliding glass door too!!!! I make sure i say a prayer for you!